O Kochi!

Jayati Narain 

I’m not really sure why I did it. I am sure that at the time I did have a reason. But right now I’m completely drawing a blank as to why I decided to go out that day, or why I wanted to go to that part of the city. That being said, much of the time ‘why not?’ is a good enough reason for me.

So why did I accidently walk across Kochi? Well, why not?

Navigating the inner streets, I began to overlay what I saw around me on to the Google maps layout. Which seemed to make the idea of getting lost more and more appealing. The sewage covering acting as a sidewalk kept me just aware enough to pay attention to where I was going. The persistent fear of falling in and having a fate like Prince stayed with me throughout my exploration (and throughout most of my time in the city). While the sewage covers were, by and large pretty reliable placeholders for the sidewalks, constantly checking on them kept me from staring at one of the best sights in the city; the sky.

Most people in the city did not understand my excitement about the sky, but having been in Delhi my whole life, a sky like this just felt fake. It was like the set of some movie, which makes you think of all kinds of ridiculously clichéd statements. Something like, ‘a sky so blue, it has been picked from an artist’s palette and spread across evenly’. The bright green heads of the coconut trees, against this blue did not make matters any better. Every time I looked at them, they reminded me of how limited my idea of a city was.  A clear blue sky and streets lined with coconut trees was enough for me to not consider Kochi a real city. For me, it was a beach town at best (the lack of an actual beach complicates matters slightly).

The city invited me to walk, with the slight hope that I may just find a hidden beach (none to report thus far). The narrow side roads, twisting and turning, allowing me to discover five routes to the same place, made up for the lack of proper sidewalks. While the city seemed to want me to wander, the people seemed to be pushing back. It wasn’t the kind of hostility or aggression I’ve learnt to deal with (an unconscious life skill developed growing up in Delhi), rather it was a confused curiosity.

With rapid ‘development’, like metro construction, road widening and planning the next flyover, the commercial capital of the state is trying its best to engulf the old trading port. And walkers like me seem to be caught in the crossfire. The city doesn’t seem to be developing for those who are walking along with no real purpose; out of place, and out of choice. The dearth of other women walking simply for the sake of walking, truly seemed to make me an anomaly. Unfortunately, the male gaze that I thought I’d be free of followed me to the end of the country, just slightly altering its character along the way.

When the bemused looks got a bit much to bear, a change in path always seemed to be around the corner. These constant ventures into different streets also led me to discover what would become one of my favourite places in the city. The ‘book hanger’ as I call it, was literally a large warehouse filled with second hand books, simply waiting to be bought by me. It’s like all the twisting lanes, and at times annoyingly curious glances were sending me towards the promise land. Back on the trail a few hours later, with a significantly heavier bag, I was almost pleased with my social awkwardness. All the issues of uncertainty and ineptness had finally paid off, leading me somewhere no bus or auto would have.

Blindly following the turns on the road, ahead of me was a familiar signboard; ‘India Coffee House’. After hours of exploring every street corner and gap in the drain covers, it was strangely reassuring to see a place I knew, or at least thought I knew. The moment I set foot inside, I realised this was not a place to sit around enjoying time, company and partaking in activities which may fall in legal grey areas. The traditional colonial uniforms the servers were wearing gave me the impression that I might actually get food here.

Staring at the calm sea in front, being challenged by the sounds from the main road (one of three in the city) that were filtering in, reminded me where I was and what I was doing.

I was on my own, learning to adult, starting out with the task of eating alone in public.

 

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यह एक शहर है

– सुशील कुमार

 

यह एक शहर है

मेरे सामने गुलमोहर के पेड़ पर फूल लदे हैं

पेड़ के चारों ओर कुछ चिडियाँ चहचहा रही हैं

उसके ठीक नीचे सड़क पर गाडियां सरपट दौड रही हैं

बगल के पेट्रोल पम्प पर अभी-अभी गाड़ी भरकर पेट्रोल उतरा है

मालूम नहीं यह तेल किस रिफायनरी से आया है

सरकार के या फिर अंबानी के ……..

पम्प के बगल में नारियल के पेड़ पर एक बाज बैठा है

कई घंटे से वह एक ही दिशा में सिर गडाए हुए है

उसके ठीक सामने……….

वो दूर कुछ इमारतें बन रही हैं

बहुत ऊंची, गगनचुम्बी

बाज की आँखें उसी दिशा में हैं

मेरी बायीं ओर शीशे की एक ऊंची इमारत है

उसके तीसरी मंजिल पर जैन फूड मिलता है

बिलकुल वेजिटेरियन

उसी इमारत के नीचे कई महँगी कारे खड़ी हैं

एक मेम अभी-अभी कार से नीचे उतरी

उन्होंने सड़क पर सोये कुत्ते के पैर पर अपनी कार चढ़ा दी

कुत्ता पो……पो ……. चिल्लाता दूर भाग गया

मेम वेज फूड खाने चली गयीं………

उसके ठीक नीचे ओर्गेनिक फ़ूड भी बिकता है

वे बड़े महंगे हैं……

एक बार मैं इस स्टोर में गया था

पैकेट में बंद मुट्ठी भर हरा धनिया सौ रुपये का था

मैंने भी एक बार गांव में पिताजी से ऐसी खेती करने की बात की थी

पिताजी बोले, ‘अरे बेवकूफ, दुनिया आगे भाग रही है और तू गोबर खाद की बात करता है

येसी खेती तो तेरे दादा जी करते थे’

खैर……….मैं खड़ा सोचता रहा……..

गांव की याद से खुद कों निकालकर शहर लाया

अचानक मेरी नाक में गमले के पौधे की ए़क पत्ती घुस गई

आछी…….आछी………..

यह भी ओर्गेनिक पौधा है

भाई……यह एक शहर है